Faith, Flow and Existential Rabbit Holes: The Mind and Journey Behind The Truth About Calm

Personal growth journeys can be full of unanswered questions and the desire to seek truths that will set us free.

And behind The Truth About Calm lies questions designed to bring truth, power and clarity.

I’m Alexine, creator of The Truth About Calm, and like many of you reading this page, for a long time I struggled with anxiety, stress, overwhelm, depression, burnout, self-doubt and stress-related illness.

And was just 6 years old when I first experienced a worried mind, fluttering stomach and chest tightness.

Back then I didn’t know the questions that would help me to understand what was happening inside of me.

Or how to make sense of the difficult circumstances surrounding me.

So I did what many of us do when unanswered questions meet life’s demanding reality.

Stuffed everything down and kept it pushing.

Pushing Forward

A few decades later, I had a glowing academic record, a hectic job, and a medical degree.

Along with bouts of depression, burnout and anxiety, with an added sprinkle of IBS, arrhythmias, chronic sinusitis, migraines and syncope.

But this time I also had questions that came with experience, growth and maturity.

Basically, what the heck is going on and how do I fix it already?

The Journey Begins

The search for answers led me to a wealth of tools that finally gave relief. 

And with a newfound love for meditation, mindfulness, journaling, gratitude, cognitive reframing, relaxation, breath work and self-care routines, I became a certified stress management consultant and opened Barbados’ first stress management clinic so I could share with others the tools that helped me.

But life has a way of “lifeing” and a few years in, everything changed. And I found myself navigating death, a breakup, declining health, worsening food sensitivities, and the rewarding but tough discovery of what it means to have a neurodivergent brain.

I turned to my tools, but to my surprise and disappointment, meditation brought unexpected, incapacitating side effects. My journals were full of the same thoughts and feelings with little to no resolution. I walked on the beach, mindfully aware of the warm sun, cool sea and fresh breeze, but just as aware of the deep, persistent hole in my chest. And with everything falling apart, gratitude became more and more elusive.

Taboo Problems, Taboo Questions

I didn’t know then that what I was experiencing was a common but taboo phenomenon, something that you might also experience.

But what I did know was that I had lots of questions, and they challenged everything I knew about health and wellness.

Questions like:

What if difficult thoughts and emotions aren’t problems, but solutions?

What if chronic, persistent symptoms are my body’s way of desperately trying to grab and keep my attention?

What if our systems are ready, able and constantly healing, but our misguided approach to wellness keeps us sick?

And what if our systems holds vast wisdom that they desperately want to share with us, but unlocking the truth lies in ditching the tools and getting better at listening?

The Research Rabbit Hole

Over 6 years, I relentlessly searched for answers; scouring physiological journals as far back as the 1930’s, and carefully pouring over present, overlooked studies and research.

Putting neurodivergent pattern recognition to good use, as I observed the common themes of difficult thoughts, emotions, behaviors and sensations within others, the world and myself.

And honing my faith and obedience in walking with God, the creator: listening to his quiet, intuitive, guiding voice, that showed me just where to look for answers when an obscured truth threatened to keep me stuck.

And at the intersection of past, present and future, inner knowing and outer doing, science and faith, The Truth About Calm was born.

Passing The Test

But creation isn’t the end of challenge, rather the beginning of a new challenge: the process of creating new perspectives, habits and even a whole new self.

And this process was immediately put to the test.

And like 6 years before, I found myself once again plunged into life’s chaos: financial struggles, toxic family dynamics, digestive issues, nutrient deficiencies, and connective tissue dysfunction, all made more challenging by mold toxicity and unhealthy living conditions.

But this time, the difficult thoughts, emotions, behaviors and sensations that once left me feeling out of control and powerless, became sources of guidance, power and strength.

And at the lowest external point in my life, internally I felt my best. Confident and ready to build an external reality that matched the stability and resilience of my carefully curated internal environment.

Flowing Forward

Today, as director of Truth Seeker Enterprises and the dance and fitness space of Unveiled Movement, a key pillar in my life is flowing with the unique feedback and wisdom that my system creates.

And sharing knowledge and insights that honor the unique way that each of us was fearfully and wonderfully made, with unique physiological needs and traits.

These pages were carefully, painstakingly and lovingly created to share these insights with you, and are designed to help you at whatever stage you find yourself.

Whether you don’t know the right questions to ask just yet.

Or you’re full of unanswered questions and in search of truth and solutions.

Or you’re in your own process of internal or external creation, and exploring and creating a new self.

The Truth About Calm is designed to meet you where you are and gently guide you to your unique, optimal space where you feel and function at your best.

And if that sounds good to you, then check out the Home page to browse and enroll in courses.

Or keep exploring the site in whatever way feels intuitive to you if you’re not ready to take the next step.

Well, that’s enough about me.

Next you can click below to explore the concepts and past research behind The Truth About Calm and future research opportunities.

About The Creation (The Research and Concepts Behind The Truth About Calm)

Oh wait, just one more thing...

Okay, that’s it, byeee!

Sincerely,

Dr. Alexine Jackman, BMedSci(hons), MBBS